Open the Heavens

The Lord will open for you His good storehouse, the heavens, to give rain to your land in its season and to bless all the work of your hand.
Deuteronomy 28:12

For three and a half years now, I’ve been on an accelerated path. I started at ground zero, but rooted fast in the Father’s love. These last years I have learned so much about humility, about love, about true identity. I have been invisible to men and to leadership. The Lord has had me all to himself, and that has turned out to be the biggest blessing of my life.

I’ve learned to trust authority. I’ve learned to ask to be under someone’s covering. I’ve learned to allow someone (multiple someones!) to speak freely into my life without taking offense. All this is new for me.

And now, just now, I have stepped onto a new platform. He is finally allowing me to give back, to be seen and encouraged. As someone just said to me: I’ve been asking God “When? When? When??” and he is saying, “Now. Now! NOW!”

It’s so true – it’s like everything over the last few years is coming together, aligning and exploding into reality.

Last Friday, an opportunity opened up which for me is a dream come true – a trip to South Africa with my church’s Messianic pastor to work with Zulu children. When it came up, my spirit just leapt inside me. But instead of embracing the joy, I fought hard to avoid anything other than fleeting thoughts of the trip details. See, I’ve struggled in the past with feeling unworthy to represent the Father, especially to join a team “like that”, whatever that means!

Even after prayer and confirmation and being invited to join the team, I find myself even today trying to keep myself from thinking about how exciting it is, about the trip agenda, in case it turns out not to be the time for me. There’s something not quite right about that.

I decided to go straight to the Lord to see if the excitement and the JOY at the prospect of going to that place with that team was from him or from me. Do you know what he said?


Take delight in the Lord,
    and he will give you your heart’s desires.
Psalm 37:4

It’s so cool that when we align our hearts with his, our desires become the same. We find joy in the same things. If we walk and talk with someone long enough, we end up walking and talking like them. We are meant to live Psalm 37:4 firsthand!

I just want to shout it out! There is nothing more exciting than experiencing that shared joy. I can feel his heart bursting too –  the heavens have opened and blessings are pouring down. After all, he’s the one who tucked those dreams and desires into my heart in the first place. Let it rain!