Sustain Me!

psalm-51

The other day, a friend noticed my sink wasn’t draining properly and opened up the cabinet to check it out. Ack! What had been so painstakingly organized just two years ago looked like a jumbled mess of garbage. Over the course of too many busy days, the extra razors or toothbrushes or mouthwash bottles had been tossed in there with full intentions to put them away properly… “soon”. I went through it all yesterday, and you wouldn’t believe how many good, important things I found. Completely unused, utterly forgotten.

It’s heavy on my mind this morning. That lackadaisical attitude is one of my biggest fears – I fear it creeping into my life, into my walk with the Lord, into relationships.

The joy of newness is sometimes overwhelming for me. I remember when I first met Jesus – there were times that I thought my heart was going to explode from too much joy. The intimacy of new salvation was so sweet, so strong. I intentionally cut out all distractions, intentionally listened for his words and nudges, intentionally gave him everything. I confidently knew I would never lose that intense connection. Sigh. How easy it is to get caught up in the routines of life and lose focus.

Restore to me the joy of Your salvation…
~Psalm 51:12a

Intentionality requires effort and is easily overlooked or procrastinated. This morning I am hoping that in two years, the doors of my house, my heart, and my relationships aren’t opened to find another mess of awesome but unused and forgotten treasures. I am praying for diligence, strength, and a willing spirit.

…And sustain me with a willing spirit.
~Psalm 51:12b