He Will Bring You Back


Life!! Slow down!! I wish this was over and I was in Tomorrow already!!

I’ve been saying a combination of “Hurry up and slow down” my entire life. Just like everyone else on the planet, I have wanted more time to do what I love, to be with who I love. Every day throws its own agenda at me and, quite honestly, some days the only thing I feel certain of is that I cannot do it. I just wish for Tomorrow.

I have a lot going on in my life…I have two+ jobs, two (soon to be five!) very active and awesome kids, two (soon to be four!) pets, a home, a ministry, treasured friendships that I try my best to nurture well, and now praise God a dream-come-true man who has chosen me too. As a person who likes to either do things with excellence or not at all, life feels pretty extreme sometimes. There are ALWAYS at least five things tapping on my shoulder or pulling on my sleeve.

There is another connection in my life that is even more essential and vital to my day. It’s one that keeps me grounded and at peace and helps me avoid choosing “not at all” on a daily basis. Because I don’t like to limit it and because I rarely have the time I’d like to devote to it, it is almost always the first to get postponed. The more often I choose to postpone it, the easier it is to postpone it again…because at that point I feel like I need even MORE time for it. Oh how I love having hours to spend alone with the Lord – where we connect and He speaks life back into my spirit. Speaks peace into the chaos.

Life is just so full! No matter who you are, or what season of life you’re in. Whether you’re organized or not. Whether the distractions pulling at you are healthy or not. We have a choice every day to put Him off or turn to Him. This morning I was reminded that when I turn to Him with my whole heart, He is there to welcome me back.

When you and your children return to the Lord your God and obey Him with all your heart and soul by all I have told you today, then the Lord your God will have you return from where you were held. He will have loving-pity for you. He will gather you again … Even if you are driven to the ends of the earth, the Lord your God will gather you and bring you back.
~Deuteronomy 30:2-4

I have a tendency to get caught up in the chaos of my life, good and bad. Sometimes the thought of reconnecting with the Lord is really overwhelming to me. Sometimes I’m ashamed there’s a disconnect at all. Sometimes it feels like I’ve put Him off too many times, or that I will never have enough time to return to the deep, constant connection we had in the beginning of our walk together. But then He pulls at my sleeve and whispers:

I have loved you with an everlasting love;
    I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.
~Jeremiah 31:3

I’m thankful He continues to tap on my shoulder and pull on my sleeve. I am thankful for His passionate and patient pursuit of my heart, and that He calls me into peace in the midst of chaos. I love the way He can magnify one second together to fill everything.